Empty Page

Every new page, every new beginning, ever since, I know someone who's lovely by coincidence, His brightness makes the night fade away, Not always do we have a next day, Silence in his eyes, quicksand in his words, I melt as he flies away like the birds. . Empty page, ink bottle, nothing to say,... Continue Reading →



A bottle of ink... A bottle of paint Another bottle to make me forget Ink on my hands... A brush between my teeth Will I be remembered? How many scribbles does it take for me to prove my love for you? How many strokes of brush on empty canvases (dying to be painted)... How many... Continue Reading →

Wish Lists & Dreams

What a girl wants? Flowers and chocolates? Or books? What does this girl want? Promises with happiness sprinkled on top…   You’re cutting me into pieces like a disliked meal on your plate… But why cut me when you have no will to eat? I may never be complete again with my missing pieces, but... Continue Reading →

Sophisticated As We Are

Tilt your head to the side and think, does this inspire me? You think you look sophisticated, don't you? I'm at yet another art gallery today. I'm too busy with my own comments roaming in my head that I don't see the crowd of people around me. They're like beautiful and colorful flowers surrounding me... Continue Reading →

Fall in Fall

Little fireworks, little fireworks, Like holding crackers in your hand... This pulsing vein, this dilated eye, Calm down so I can think... Little butterflies, little butterflies, Nervous breakdowns with childish giggles... Rainy days and drying leaves... I'm welcoming autumn with a crooked smile. I'm stuck between saying farewell to iced lattes and welcoming a new... Continue Reading →

Lavender Nights

Here I am welcoming tonight from the sparkling Bosphorus Bridge... I feel like I've been here before... And I have. But I was passing by like a blur and my thoughts were miles away with you... Tonight I rediscovered myself... I feel... I feel like the full moon... On a night as bright as this... Continue Reading →

Liquid Courage

Paint me a picture Let your branches reach my leaves Let me embrace you like the sea Let the sun touch my cheeks Let the rain wash all of our worries Let the waves carry me home Let the time flow till I reach you Let me open my eyes and see you Paint me... Continue Reading →

Dear Heart-breaker

Dear Heart-breaker, I realized that you never know who's going to leave an impact in your life. Good or bad, people influence us. You have influenced me mostly good but lastly bad. I know I can't just forget the good memories and think of the one bad thing that happened at the end... But you... Continue Reading →


Waiting here outside in the rain so late, Trying to figure out why you don't get it, It's been two whole months I'm trying to say it, Two whole months.... I'm trying to say it.... With you or without you, I will continue living through, With you... My heart doesn't ache. Without you... My life... Continue Reading →


Hold a pen all day but you can't create anything like that. Scribble all you like, it won't be anything real. Not as long as you don't have ink in your pen... Unspoken invisible words and whole hearts... Inked words on bodies and broken hearts. So I have a confession... You're the ink in my... Continue Reading →


How can I sleep when my mind is awake in daydreams and not after midnight thoughts... I turn right, I turn left... I hum an old song and wonder if it is insomnia... I toss and turn a little bit more but no avail... I still have you in my thoughts. I envy the moon who... Continue Reading →


Perfectly written poetry Singsong voice Read me all of your worries He skips breakfasts to avoid conversation. I skip meals because I forget... He listens to music to reminisce the old days. I listen to music to fade out the background bickerings.... He takes a walk to think and go on short-lived adventures. I take... Continue Reading →


Where am I? The sheets are cold and I can't move a muscle... Perspiration all over my skin... Worry in my eyes, scanning everything around... Heart beats quickening... Swallow the less crazy words before you scream out the real crazy questions... Do you ever wake up numb?... Like you're chained to your bed... Like you... Continue Reading →

Seagulls of Istanbul

If you're in Istanbul, by the coast and looking for a friend (mostly to share your bagel), I'm here for you. It only takes one piece to call me. Seagull is my name. I'm more of a fish kind of  bird but you know, a bagel or two won't hurt. Remember how your mother used... Continue Reading →

Poetry Podcasts

I know we haven't exactly met in so many years... sometimes the miles of distance between us felt like a telephone cord... and sometimes I wrote letters for you like we were living in the 70s. I never sent the letters... I just kept them sealed in a drawer. Out of sight, out of mind?... Continue Reading →

Inner Beauty

I lost my hope on a rainy day, You found it's pieces yesterday, Your silence is a broken glass under my feet, You're the pearl I found under a summer heat.   Pebbles, shells & lots of sand, I fell down & you stretched your hand. Just like the fallen leaves on an autumn day,... Continue Reading →


Your fragrance, your touch, your voice and your gaze... I'm familiar with all of these but I still can't get used to the idea of you being away from me... Believe me... Without you... Istanbul doesn't have a Bosphorus, it can't swallow the bitterness of our longing... Every time you leave... you steal nothing but... Continue Reading →

Daisy Innocence

How do you forgive someone who hurt you? How do you get rid of the things that cling to your soul? How do you blow the dust of your past? How do you exhale without breathing fire? Every little detail, every little noteworthy moment... But is this all worth forgiving? Daisy is the symbol of... Continue Reading →


Remember that day at the beach? The sky and the sea were clear and aligned with our dreams... Do you miss those days like I do? As deep as the oceans, As delicate as a daisy, As chilly as a highland, Your heart is my home. One jigsaw to complete this mess. I'm always missing... Continue Reading →

And They Lived Happily Ever After

How you're interesting in an addictive way... you and every little detail you have is another piece that adds color to my life... bit by bit my painting of you is nearing completion.Hate and envy of the thorns of a rose to its petals... We aren't complete without our flaws... they make us real. So... Continue Reading →

Unrequited Love

I started writing a journal yesterday and I never once mentioned your name. You are the secret I keep even from my dear diary... I've talked to and about other people but your name is a sin... it's the unspoken secret affair. Everything changes when love enters the picture... along with heartache and groundless happiness.... Continue Reading →


I have a blank canvas I was keeping just for you. I'm adding and stirring paints just to get your color. I'm not sure what color the background should be. Which color suits you? All these different paints and nothing describes you best like... the color of poison. Why do I keep looking for you... Continue Reading →

Broken Promises

It's so hard swallowing back the things I don't want to admit out loud... It's so hard deleting the old pictures... It's so hard moving on when I'm staying behind and breathing the same air when I was with him... The most broken thing of all is that it hurts so bad that he gave... Continue Reading →

Faded Background Noises

I don't know how to be alone. I don't know how to stay behind when everyone is leaving. I don't know how to embrace silence when every part of me wants to scream... Sometimes time feels slow and easy, sometimes it's fast and a blur. It's all about feelings and memorable places. Jazz or classical,... Continue Reading →

Our Garden

It was an old story, ours... It started off just like any... Unlike most fairytales there was no "and they lived happily ever after..." ending. It was more like, "So long and thanks for all the memories"...   One spring afternoon when I was attending an art gallery you passed by. No "Hi", no "Hello"...... Continue Reading →


We are a part of a world ruled by order, but we're too chaotic (for them)... One would say we're unoccupied when all we do is be ourselves. Isn't that what freedom is? To be able to talk about our passion? We are recklessly beautiful and they don't see it. All they do is judge... Continue Reading →


Maybe I was wrong about you... We put on masks and we hide behind lies. Time is a light when it comes to people, unmasks all the dirt and the secrets. I had the chance to see all your traits and tricks. You hid all the good ones behind your mask... Why? Maybe it takes... Continue Reading →

Every Time

Every morning I wish to see you again. Everyone has their own way of showing love. Some would say sweet nothings, others would just mock and annoy. As for me, I'm just stuck on rewind playing a memory I should've forgotten years ago.  Every afternoon I wonder why you keep our pictures. Sometimes I can't... Continue Reading →

The One That Got Away

All the right signs for all the wrong assumptions... I loved my dreams and memories more than I loved the idea of him at the time... Hope is an ugly word for someone who doesn't believe in their past self being right about the one that got away...  What I needed wasn't a confrontation... I... Continue Reading →

Kiss Me

Kiss me like... You do in my dreams Kiss me on... A sweet day like this Kiss me so... I can never forget you Kiss me again... I can always keep your secrets Kiss me and... My lips will be sealed Kiss me always... I'll miss you the second you leave Kiss me so... I... Continue Reading →

Beyond The Dream of You

I fell in love... It was so intense that I had a brief second of bliss before I woke up to a whole different life... If only my branches could reach your leaves... if only... Maybe then you'll feel how it's like to watch from afar... If only my pavements could reach your train tracks...... Continue Reading →

Repetitive Days & Second Chances

On days like Mondays you're far away... You probably can't even leave your cosy bed to come and bother me. "Arriving at my home town after so long makes me feel nostalgic and a little broken."   On days like Tuesdays you're almost at my door... You probably couldn't find the right words to say... Continue Reading →

Q: What is one thing that you would like to change about yourself?

If I could change one thing about myself, that would be my attitude. Everyone has a different attitude towards life, some of them are cowards, others are sticking to the rules but mine is a bit rude. Some would say that I am a strong, persistent and confident woman that takes no interest in objection.... Continue Reading →

Q: Who do you love and who loves you?

Love isn't just a verb or a noun anymore... it's a deep concept. For me, it's the core of the universe. It's what everything is built on. Relationships, raising kids, art, growing plants, all the hobbies in between the earth and the skies... and even money. We collect money to get what we love!.. We... Continue Reading →

Lavender Mystery

Let's find our lavender mystery... I could almost hear you asking, "Is that a place?"... It's actually a concept. You'd probably say, "How will we find a concept?" This is how: You'll take your van and I'll take my pillows. You'll wait for me under the haunted willows. If I'm late, wait at the gate.... Continue Reading →

Word Stealer

Drawing lines on words.  Underlining words. Changing words. Adding words. Erasing words. Filling crosswords. You were good at all these things. But above all, you were the best at one thing... Stealing words that weren't yours. Every word I learned, you added another one to the end each time. You taught me how sentences could be... Continue Reading →

Ferris Wheel

Autumns were never your favorite. You hated the smell of dried leaves and I always loved crushing them under my feet. One time you mentioned how cinnamon on top of your coffee was the only thing you liked about autumn. You also kept reminding me that winter was your favorite season even though you had... Continue Reading →

New Life

It was the 31st of December 2010, a magical day that changed everything in my life. The moment I stepped out of the airport, the weather was ice cold. The silence of my loneliness in a huge city like Istanbul, that was something new. I never knew how much I loved Jeddah until I left.... Continue Reading →

Our Gamma Maze

I met you in the winter of 2011. We weren't very fond of each other at the time. We kept on discussing matters and disagreeing every time. At the time I thought we'd never be friends like that but ironically we were inseparable by the summer. We planned on meeting up but it was cancelled... Continue Reading →

All The Questions That Are Damaging My Sanity

How could you forget? How could you forget our happiest memories? How dare you replace our happiness with misery? Why would you give up that easily? Why did you leave? I don't even remember the reason. I bet you had quite the reason to leave on that cold winter morning. I bet you planned your big escape from... Continue Reading →

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